My Thoughts... My Feelings... My BLog

I don’t know why I would always love to go to Japan. When was a kid, my dream places were America, Spain, Switzerland, etc, etc. But during my college days, I’ve always wanted to go these places.. Japan, New Zealand, and S. Korea (Jeju Island). Anyways, I really admire how Japanese made their country such a great country considering from their history – the bombing in Hiroshima. Well, it has greatly affect their lives, they really had their worst times, but now…you can really see the good transformation of Japan. They are actually, one of the best when it comes to technology, Japan made gadgets could not get behind from those of American and European gadgets. I just hope one day that I would be able to go there, and hopefully marry my ultimate crush Mr. Hideo! Bwahaha!! Anyway, once everything are all prepared and I’m on my way to the country of my Sweetie ... I already do have my list of activities…duh! First thing’s first, I will go on night shopping in street bargains..well my friend Harlie said it’s really a lot more cheaper than those in the malls, and then I will really ride in the Bullet Train; then the roller coaster ride that Harlie told me also.. then the amazingly beautiful hot springs there; and of course the climb for Mt. Fuji! Wow!!! I bet Jo Anna would really die to go with me hahaha. Anyways, this post is almost done, so i hope that anyone could read this and would be kind enough to help to visit Japan that would be great, man! I’m dying to meet you! Hehehe =)

Hello?!?!? ako lang ba ang tao dito sa office?!?!? bakit ako na lang lagi? ako na nga lang ang may trabaho dito,ako pa pa-problemahin nyo jan sa mga katarantaduhan ninyo?! ok fine.. sign is just a sign! PIRMA LANG YAN! NAPAKADALI LANG! Pero hindi nyo yan magawa? kayo na lang kaya? madali lang man kaya yan? .... and besides, after I sign your stupid documents..sinong tatawagan at pepestehen nyang mga pinagpapasahan nyo huh?!?! bullsh*t!

OMG! As in oh my god! and oh my goodness! and oh-my-gosh!!!! for the first time in the history of bananas, I received an email from PapaIan containing these words - "Dear Bubbles" Grabeeh!! As in super mega kiligin muna ako huh!?!?

Uhm excuse me first, dear reader of my blog, just please allow me to be in my normal foolishness state-being when it comes to my PapaIan could you just imagine?? for more then a year and a half of exchanging emails, this is the firt time he used "Dear" in his greeting... it's like he's calling me "Hi there, Dear"... waahahaahaha..yaickss.. anong kabaduyan ba ung nasingit ko! *lol*

... but then, so what's the email containing about? Oh but of course..his normal stuff - further questioning & discontentment s with the figures reflected in the report. Hahayy what a perfectionist he is! and that's the reality! So I'll go back now to reality and take care of my stuff... at magtutuos na naman kami ni PapaIan! Haynaku naman kse PapaIan, why you're such a "perfect ian"?!?! Whew!

I just got home from our meeting with Micmic and Barbie.. it's like a get to together from not seeing each other for a very long time.. and yep that even with Micmic 'coz I haven't seen for like 6 or 7 months to think that she's few kilometers away from my home hahaha.

.... but then i felt like sleepy now so guess i must continue this thing by tomorrow...

it's so, so frustrating talaga... nakakainis!! as in ggrrr!! it's so hard to get PR here in blogspot, I manage to generate PR 1 twice. First was last year, too bad i lost it, then I manage to regain it three months ago, but not until today... huhuhu... nakakainis tlaga!! i lost it again! I don't know how or whom am i going to feel mad - is it to myself or my job. I know it's so OA to reason out "being very busy" but it is really true. I'm literally freakin' darn busy! And i hate it being busy always at the office 'coz seeing that some of my useless officemates who does nothing but being sloppy all the time are just playing games and sound tripping at the back. haiiissshh!!!
Whew! sometimes I just can't wait to get out from here!!.... but I still love the maritime life, and i will surely miss my tiring, demanding, vexing, stressful but enjoying moments here :(

ggrrr!!! ano ba naman 'tong si papa ian!! fresh from New Zealand..pasalubongan ba naman ako ng mga critiques nya?!?!

haynaku busy pa akech sa report..bukas ko na lng ituloy tong blog ko.. naiinis lang tlaga ako! hmp!

If there’s something wrong with the outcome of your report or just simply your paperworks in general, you felt so incessantly embarrassed to your boss to the point that if you could only beg the ground to eat the entire you just to escape from this fuss… not to mention the massive guilt that kills you as if there’s a voice in your mind that keeps on bawling you out: why you sooo stupid!!!??!!

I felt so d*mn angry with myself whenever I’m caught up in situation like this. I feel so weak like I will have an infinite misery (hahayyy). Of course you cannot avoid if you feel depress and disappointed in yourself ‘coz who else are to blame in your stupidity.. your rashness..and your recklessness???

But anyways, do you know that it’s even more twice infuriatingly if the liability and BLAME is on you when you are actually not at fault. I had errors then due to my stupid negligence but majority was because of inaccurate datas and flaws from our informants.
But the thing now…it’s a lot different. Well of course my place of being at fault is so consistent. I received an email yesterday from Ts*m0** asking me about the previous report (It was still from last month actually – the week 33 in particular). She’s questioning me about this and that, and that there something wrong..simple as that! As I went over our files it is indeed erroneous. There were slip-ups in the entries and miscalculations on the figures as well. Of course I held liable for this concern because I am in-charge in this particular task in the company.. but this particular report…. I DID NOT DO IT!!! (i did not do it, ok?!?! I was lying at the hospital then, conquering the “stitch of my life“)… but ironically when this was sent a month ago to the “superiors/principals” through an e-mail containing message that was sent by me… (hahahaha can I just kill you?!) I really over-reacted last month about this.. why put my name when you have your own name?? I mean, you prepared for that report.. you did it all well… but… but why do these people are so afraid and timid to put their name for just a stupid email message?!?!?!?! It just shows that they’re just too cowardly to accept undertakings and hold for responsibilities. SO PATHETIC!! For two years in the company, they never mature! I guess this is one of the reasons why the company is in adversity. The company still struggles because the staff never struggle. Of course, I will not excuse myself from my own shortcomings, I’m not perfect and I have lapses but nonetheless, I know that I have exert enough effort and did my part for this company!